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April 18 - April 25, 2013

The Numbers
  • Current Weight: 224.6 lbs
  • Weight Loss This Week: -.8 lbs
  • Total Loss From Starting Weight: -32.6 lbs

The Setbacks

  • I was unable to keep from binging late at night. 
  • I’m still trying to get my insomnia in check.  Yesterday, I managed to get a full night’s rest, but I still might see my doctor about this.  Again.  I’m so sick of going to doctors about this issue, because all they ever want to do is drug me up! 
  • I’m bloated and moody.  My cycle is right around the corner.  I don’t mind menstruating, it’s the stupid nonsense before it arrives that gets on my nerves.
  • I’m so over Active Link.  I need better fitness monitor.

The High Notes

  • I attended three yoga classes last week, and went for a long walk 5 out of seven days. 
  • Still working on getting my eating habits back on track, and while I did binge, it was mostly on fruits and veggies. 
  • I’ve been doing my best to truly embrace the concept of letting go.

The Weekly Goals

  • -1 lbs loss
  • Continue the 30 Day Squat Challenge
  • Continue taking yoga.
  • Continue looking for a race or event to train for.
  • Continue to begin and end the day with a positive thought.
  • Finish cleaning out the fridge and pantry, continue to restock it with better choices

April 11 - April 18, 2013 (Possible Trigger Warning)

The Numbers

  • Current Weight: 225.4 lbs
  • Weight Loss This Week: +3.8 lbs
  • Total Loss From Starting Weight: -31.8 lbs

The Setbacks

Sunday found me in a very uncomfortable place - being confronted with memories of my miscarriage.  I don’t often talk about it, and I don’t really deal with it.  The whole subject of motherhood is one that leaves me feeling worthless.  I should be honest and say that on the really bad days, it leaves me suicidal.  Before I go on, please know that I’m not planning to harm myself.

Motherhood feels like a childish dream I’m not worthy of.  I could hear voices from my past telling me “You’re not the marrying type,” and “You’re not meant to be a mother,” and I just want to sleep and will myself to never wake up.  Sometimes, I can cope.  Last week clearly wasn’t that time. 

This weekend also found me suffering from insomnia and a head cold the Hubs probably brought home from work.  Good times, good times.  It’s miserable feeling as though you’re back at square one - especially when you’re nowhere near it!  I didn’t even touch the goals I set for myself.  I paid for my lack of fight on the scale.  I’m not proud.  I’m tearing up as I type this, actually.  But I am holding myself accountable. 

The High Notes

  • I’ve slowly been adding movement back into my day. 
  • Little by little, I’ve been seizing control of my eat habits. 
  • I’ve been filling my time with hobbies again. 
  • I’m in the process of looking for a new goal to work towards.  A new race.  I have my eye set on the Electric Run, but I’m open to anything that I can train for.

The Weekly Goals

  • -1 lbs loss
  • Begin taking classes again - especially yoga.
  • Find a race or event to train for.
  • Begin and end the day with a positive thought.
April 4 - April 11, 2013  The Numbers Current Weight: 221.6 lbs Weight Loss This Week: 0 lbs Total Loss From Starting Weight: -35.6 lbs The Setbacks I got back on and fell back off again.  Hard.  No excuses here.  Just plain old fashioned fucking up and getting lazy.  After a good amount of beating myself up, I dragged my ass to last week’s weigh in.  I didn’t lose anything this week, but I didn’t gain anything either. I have yet to learn to push myself without shoving myself to the floor then kicking myself when I’m down.  I think that’s the hardest part to learn. The High Notes I’ve been focusing on the things that will hopefully motivate me to continue.  One of them is photographed above - my old jeans (from when I was at my heaviest) vs. my current jeans.  It’s just a reminder of how far I’ve come and how far I can go if I just keep pushing myself. My workout was 30 minutes long.  In that time, I did a 1/2 mile run in 10 minutes.  I was so disappointed, but I had to remind myself that it’s something.  Failure would have been nothing at all.The Weekly Goals -1 lbs loss Begin taking classes again - especially yoga. Restart 5K training. Begin and end the day with a positive thought. View high resolution
April 4 - April 11, 2013 
The Numbers
  • Current Weight: 221.6 lbs
  • Weight Loss This Week: 0 lbs
  • Total Loss From Starting Weight: -35.6 lbs

The Setbacks

  • I got back on and fell back off again.  Hard.  No excuses here.  Just plain old fashioned fucking up and getting lazy.  After a good amount of beating myself up, I dragged my ass to last week’s weigh in.  I didn’t lose anything this week, but I didn’t gain anything either.
  • I have yet to learn to push myself without shoving myself to the floor then kicking myself when I’m down.  I think that’s the hardest part to learn.

The High Notes

I’ve been focusing on the things that will hopefully motivate me to continue.  One of them is photographed above - my old jeans (from when I was at my heaviest) vs. my current jeans.  It’s just a reminder of how far I’ve come and how far I can go if I just keep pushing myself.
My workout was 30 minutes long.  In that time, I did a 1/2 mile run in 10 minutes.  I was so disappointed, but I had to remind myself that it’s something.  Failure would have been nothing at all.

The Weekly Goals

  • -1 lbs loss
  • Begin taking classes again - especially yoga.
  • Restart 5K training.
  • Begin and end the day with a positive thought.

Jan. 3rd to Jan. 10th, 2013

The Numbers
  • Current Weight: 219.2 lbs
  • Weight Loss This Week: -1.2 lbs
  • Total Loss From Starting Weight: -38 lbs

The Setbacks

  • I’ve been snacking a bit, but I was at least mindful about what I was eating.
  • I’m still undergoing the baseline assessment for ActiveLink, but I figured out a few days too late that I could remove it to exercise in order to keep from getting a ridiculous baseline number.
  • I find myself dwelling on the weight I gained, but I’ve been good about not beating myself up over it.

The High Notes

It’s been so nice to be back on track.  And it’s been even nicer to see the numbers decreasing.  But the one thing I have to do is I can’t wait to start moving my ass!  I haven’t been as active as I was last summer, and that has to will change.  I’m also looking forward to putting ActiveLink to work.

The Weekly Goals

  • -2 lbs loss
  • Begin taking classes again - especially yoga
  • Run for 20 minutes 4 days this week
  • Try to have fruit and/or veggies with every single meal this week
Despite severely neglecting my diet and training, I’m not doing as miserably as I should be.  The bad news is I have gained weight.  That stops today though, because I don’t want to gain more than I already have. The good news is, I’ll be wearing this dress to a holiday party next week.

Despite severely neglecting my diet and training, I’m not doing as miserably as I should be.  The bad news is I have gained weight.  That stops today though, because I don’t want to gain more than I already have.

The good news is, I’ll be wearing this dress to a holiday party next week.

August 10th - 6th, 2012

Achievements:
  • 5 lbs for a total of -35.2 lbs
  • Two weeks wearing my Invisalign braces
  • Met the 1 of the 4 goals I set last week

Setbacks

  • Found myself without sleep and too tired to begin Sunday with a sun salutation… again.  Looking to possibly postpone this goal once my sleep schedule is back to normal
  • Didn’t make it to any classes… again.  Once again, my sleep (or lack there of) has affected this
  • I’m almost sure my lack of sleep has affected my general well-being.

Notes

Not only did the week find me with a general sense of illness, but it found me with a miserable sleep schedule.  Thankfully, I was able to at least watch what I ate and do some exercise.  Not nearly as much as I wanted, but some is much better than none.  I don’t know that I’ll be posting updates while I’m back east, but we’ll see what I can manage.

This Week’s Goals

  • -1.5 lbs loss
  • Continue working on time/distance
  • Get ready for my trip to NYC

August 2nd - 9th, 2012

Achievements:
  • -1.4 lbs for a total of -30.2 lbs
  • Completed Couch to 5K training
  • One week wearing my Invisalign braces
  • Met the 2 of the 5 goals I set last week

Setbacks

  • Forgot to begin Sunday with a sun salutation… again
  • Didn’t make it to any classes… again
  • Didn’t meet my -2 lbs goal

Notes

I found myself getting lazy once my training stopped.  I have pushed myself to run, but it seems to be a certainty when I have a set schedule to train to.  Easy enough to fix.

This Week’s Goals

  • -2 lbs loss
  • Continue working on time/distance
  • Take two classes at the gym
  • Begin Sunday morning with sun salutation!!!
July 26th - August 2nd, 2012 Achievements: -4.6 lbs for a total of -28.8 lbs -10% of my body weight gone My ninth and final week of Couch to 5K Got in a LOT of exercise despite missing classes Received my Invisilign braces this week Met the 3 of the 6 goals I set last week Setbacks Forgot to begin Sunday with a sun salutation again Didn’t make it to any classes Notes Despite dining out quite a bit during my in-laws’ visit, I managed to make a number of good choices.  I also did a lot of walking, running, and some hiking.  Reaching this goal was a big deal to me, and I’m already working on the next set of goals.  This Week’s Goals -2 lbs loss Finish training Begin working on distance Take two classes at the gym Begin Sunday morning with sun salutation  View high resolution
July 26th - August 2nd, 2012
Achievements:
  • -4.6 lbs for a total of -28.8 lbs
  • -10% of my body weight gone
  • My ninth and final week of Couch to 5K
  • Got in a LOT of exercise despite missing classes
  • Received my Invisilign braces this week
  • Met the 3 of the 6 goals I set last week

Setbacks

  • Forgot to begin Sunday with a sun salutation again
  • Didn’t make it to any classes

Notes

Despite dining out quite a bit during my in-laws’ visit, I managed to make a number of good choices.  I also did a lot of walking, running, and some hiking.  Reaching this goal was a big deal to me, and I’m already working on the next set of goals. 

This Week’s Goals

  • -2 lbs loss
  • Finish training
  • Begin working on distance
  • Take two classes at the gym
  • Begin Sunday morning with sun salutation 
July 19th - 26th, 2012

Achievements:
  • 2.6 lbs for a total of -24.2 lbs
  • My eighth week of Couch to 5K
  • I’m now running for 30 minutes straight, deciding that the 28 minutes I’m supposed to run is a silly middle step
  • Met the 3 of the 4 goals I set last week

Setbacks

  • Forgot to begin Sunday with a sun salutation because I slept in.  Shame on me, I know.

Notes

I’m still pretty hungry after runs, but I’m obviously doing a better job of balancing everything since I dropped a nice bit of weight.  I decided after weeks of hard work, it was time to treat myself.  So I got a pedicure and a haircut.  I felt a great deal better about myself after that little bit of maintenance. 
Hot yoga was amazing, and I’m looking forward to making it a regular thing. 

This Week’s Goals

  • -l lbs loss
  • Continue training
  • Take at least one Bikram Yoga class
  • Take an additional class at the gym
  • Begin Sunday morning with sun salutation 
  • Make a list of small rewards

July 12th - 19th, 2012

Achievements:

  • -.5 lbs for a total of -21.5 lbs
  • My seventh week of Couch to 5K
  • I’m now running for 25 minutes straight
  • Met the 2 of the 4 goals I set last week

Setbacks

  • I’m still schlepping through my training.  I have no good excuse for it either.
  • Now that I’m running straight without intervals, I find myself hungrier a lot of the time

Notes

My cousin’s passing has left me in something of a depression.  As long as I’m still training, I feel that things will be alright.  There is improvement, and I’ve returned to meditating daily which has helped a great deal.  I’m hoping to add yoga to that routine as it used to be one of my favorite ways to center myself. 

Running without the interval training has also been making me hungry.  I’ve been trying to find the right balance of foods to keep me energized and full while allowing for continued weight loss.  That’s been a bit exhausting, but hey, I lost weight this week so I must be on the right track.

My little gem jar is now divided into three sections:

  1. What I have left until I meet my half-way point
  2. The remainder of the second half
  3. The final ten lbs.  

Each section is divided by a little note letting me know where I’m at.  I’m looking forward to seeing that first card.  There will be photos, believe that.

This Week’s Goals

  • -l lbs loss
  • Continue training
  • Take at least one class at the gym this week - MUST GET THIS DONE ALREADY.  I really have to cast my fear aside and grow the fuck up
  • Begin Sunday morning with sun salutation (I rather enjoyed doing this last Sunday, so I think I’m going to try it again)